trYna b hapPY

people see me as funny, humorous, sometime maybe ridiculous, cheerful an maybe more..
but, am i so?
i do what people want more than what i want actually.
i m willing to compromise, not to calculative,
not to selfish that much,
as every1 is sure selfish, only differ in the level of selfishness.
for friends, for someone deserve,
i m willing to hide mine, do what u want,
being thoughtful and so.
however, i get nothing other than disappointed, fed up, sadness at the end.
why someone so good in comment people, so good in thinking,
but never come to practice?
not necessary to make yourself such holy, such pride, such honour, such...
as, you are actually just hurting someone loves you, someone cares you,
u care nobody other than yourself.
u tend to build up your happy by suffering others..
u never never never realize how much of sadness u left to people around.
you live in your own world, you want everyone follow your rules.
you want other sacrifice for your,
keep burning themselves to bring u up.
just because of you, people around keep bleeding.
because i treat you as a good friend,
i compromise, i bear , i quiet, and finally u leave me speechless.
im just tryna b happy, i don't want to lose anyone..
im just tryna b happy, but can i?
or should i ask, can you?